Worthy. Find. Lose.

"He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who not take up his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it." Matthew 10:37-39

worthy: having value, honorable

find: to come upon by searching or effort; to discover by effort or study

lose: fail to use, let slip by; to fail to keep control of or allegiance of

I am worthy of Christ when I put Him as first. I have value when He is number one. All I can think is that I have not been putting Him first in my life. My laziness, excuses, selfishness, relationships and pride can testify to this fact.

I think I am too busy trying to find my worth and life in a world that is fleeting. Finding, searching, discovering... isn't that what the world says is our job? I hear a constant shout to FIND YOURSELF! How funny, Jesus specifically tells me not to. It is not my job, but His.

Here is my job- to lose my life, to not discover who I am, but WHO CHRIST IS. That's it!!! Do you see what I'm seeing? I need to just stop looking at me, and look at JESUS. Nothing else is as important. It's when I focus on Him that He finds me, declares my value, and makes everything else work.

Have you ever noticed that when you are obeying God's heart that your life seems to just flow? Even when things are hard, that there is a peace to sustain you? I know that to be the truth and yet I find myself in constant disobedience.

For me it comes down to this: I must conscientiously lose myself. I like the definition that says fail to use. I need to fail to use my sinful desires so that I can find my life in Christ.